The Edge

I walk closer to the edge these days
Longing to feel the adrenaline,
The danger
Knowing all the while that nightmares could haunt my dreams again
That I could spend my time staring at the ceiling wishing I could sleep
That my time would be spent chasing unseen monsters
Scared of the comfort of my bed
Feeling more like a caged and tortured animal than human
But I know I'm human
And that this pain comes with the risks I take
And that admittance to the brotherhood demands these risks
So I take them, all the while, still fearful of the edge.