Cold Hard Reality

I wish, I wish, I wish
All I see is cold hard reality
The here and now
The truth hurts

I hate calling this a problem
Been here so long,
It seems the norm

But they call me crazy
Say I’m out of whack
They want to push these meds
Before I give up and crack

This branch is bending
It’ll go before too long
God please
Don’t bend me anymore

Like a sick child it seems
He’s been bending me for
What seems too long
I can’t take this anymore

Oblivion seems so sweet
Medicated bliss
So clouded

Not knowing one day from the next
No more pain I feel
Is this the reality
Is this the real?

Plugged into the matrix
Forced to see someone’s point of view
Can my feelings ever be my own?